"In vacant or in pensive mood..." I am: Bekah; 24; Law Student / Favorite Things: Carbs (so there!), Johnny Damon, Smiling at babies, Grilled cheese, Comfortable silence / Favorite Supreme Court Justice: Brennan / Favorite Wilson: Owen by an inch / Today's Special: Song: Elliott Smith, "Bled White"; Quote: "You know, there's like a butt-load of gangs at this school. This one gang kept wanting me to join because I'm pretty good with a bowstaff." Please love me: mmbekah@yahoo.com

 
Top 3 Disturbing Items of the Week:

1. I saw a bumper sticker that said "CARPE DM: seize the Dungeon Master." I was afraid that person might attempt to smother me with his cape or cut me with his "Magic: The Gathering" playing cards.
2. In spinning yesterday, one of the songs was a remix of "Smells Like Teen Spirit" and "Bootylicious." I am dead serious. Try to wrap your head around that one.
3. People in law school can be mean, and I am not thick-skinned enough to deal with it. Being on law review is exhausting, not just because of the work I'll have to do, but because I'm constantly on the defensive. It makes me sad to know that people are talking about me or are resentful of me. Even when people make jokes and kid around with me, ("It's you! We're not worthy! I must shield my eyes; I'm in the presence of greatness!") it starts to really wear me down. I know, you might be saying "Oh, poor thing--on law review and complaining," but it really is hard for me to handle the new attention and expectations, from my classmates and others. My only consolation is that, although law students can be mean, they're also fickle. Everyone will move on to the next order of business as soon as something "scandalous" occurs. Until then, I'm going to lie low. Which will be easy, because I'll be in the law review office for the rest of my life.

I suppose all good things come at a price, but must that price be...MY SOUL?? Dum dum dum...(to be continued).

posted by Bekah at 12:17 PM :: |

 
Minus the Red Koolaid and the White High-Tops (for the most part)...

Oh law review. What the hell am I doing? We had a meeting yesterday, and I had to wear business casual attire. I do not wear business casual attire of my own free will, and I was not pleased to have to do it on the first day of school. My friends are already worried about the "mini Bekah revolution" as Kate calls it, which began with not getting cable in my new apartment, progressed to not typing my notes, and now involves wearing black "slacks" and a "nice blouse" (don't worry, I refuse to call anything a "blouse." I think the only time I've seen that word is in the book for 7th grade Spanish as the translation for "blousa"). I got about 15,000 emails from chipper law review people about assignments and training sessions and free books in the law review suite (which, by the way, were all first year books--thanks).

At the meeting I was doing my best to fit in, but I seriously felt like there was a big red flashing arrow over my head saying "She is not gung ho law school. She snuck in with a case note. Make fun of her grade in Civ Pro." Ah, I'm sure it will be fine, but I'm a little concerned. Here's why. The editor, who is very nice, gave a welcoming speech in which he said, and I quote, "We even have parties where we can participate in social interaction." For the love of all that is holy. He also said things like, "This is a great responsibility. You will not let us down. You will do your assignments in a timely fashion. You will never leave the library..." I was beginning to think that there was a reason so many people were wearing all black (refer to title above).

Ok, I have to do my reading for my classes today...while the law review master has still not given me my first "assignment."

posted by Bekah at 9:02 AM :: |